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Thursday, May 28, 2009

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I know you cant see a single word below. Oh well it's some random ranting.

Whimsy needs to grow up! Seriously, I should stop thinking that this world is full of nice people. I have come to the point that i realise the reality is that people are really really really self centered.

Anyway, i am pissed with the piano duet practices for the coming up piano competition. So basically every pair are given allocated time slot of practices since the school has limited facilities. So my allocated time is Monday and Tuesday from 6pm to 8pm and Friday which ends at 6pm. So i had my PW meeting after school on Wednesday and Thursday. I think this was a rather reasonable arrangement, a balance between pdps and PW.

on Monday. I left school at around 8.30 reached home at around 10.
on Tuesday. Same thing happened
on Wednesday. i poned (confession!! ) contact to practice my solo piano since i didn't practice my own pieces for 2 days. ( break record!) But i got chased out shortly since choir was having dsa audition. I found myself another piano and after playing 1 page. My duet partner came in and literally PULLED ME OUT OF THE CHAIR to practice with her.
on Thursday. she wanted me to practice with her. But i told her i got PW meeting. I told her we will be ending late since tomorrow is the last day for GPP approval. And she replied' never mind i will wait for you.'-.-

I know from her point of view. I am just a lazy duet partner trying to avoid extra practices. But have she ever think from MY Point of view?! I reach home at 10. By the time i finish dinner and bathing, it will be 10.45. I don't want to get complains from neighbours for midnight practices. Imagine i reach everyday at this time?! How am i going to practice my piano! I know the piano competition is coming, my piano exam is also coming. I know you are anxious for this competition be it because it helps to build up your portfolio or because it is your first piano competition. Whatever it is. I am anxious about this competition too. I have never even had a single piano performance in front of large crowd.Cant you see i am just trying to balance my life! There is always a time limit for everything! Spending too much time on one will just result in other stuff suffering. It is about quality of each practice, how much you focus, play every single details you are supposed to and not pick and choose any of your choice.

Can people understand that the world doesn't revolve around the,. The world doesn't revolve because of them.

If i never end up in one of the 5 teams representing TJC , I wont cry over it, unlike SYF. Not because i didnt put in hard work or sacrifice much my free time. But simply because i dint enjoy playing the music at all. I feel pissed off during practices when we don't come in together. The rate of our breathing is different ,you always never look at me when you are the one supposed to be cuing me and the list just goes on. Lack of chemistry is not an excuse for not playing together, since we have been playing for months! Its has come to the point that this has become much of a chore and not enjoyment.

I am not going let go of any of my precious saturdays because of this. Imagine i take 3 hour ride in total for that 2 hour of practice?! I wonder why i did that for the past few saturdays. This already way past my limits.

Whimsy is going to work hard and pass her piano practical. 14 more weeks. JIAYOU!!!!

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